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Dear House on the Mill

The Beauty of Everyday

It's been 12 days since I left my steady (and paying) 9-5 job to focus on being a better follower of Christ, a better mother, a better wife...

and a better ME! 

Not that I wasn't a good mother or a good wife already (or that you can't be all of those things and still work a 9-5 job), but I felt like I was drowning.  I felt like I could only half-way accomplish anything I started. Throw in a small business on top of all of that and I was barely treading water.  So, I prayed and God showed me the way to be able to spend more time at home.

In all honestly, motherhood is the hardest job I'll ever do.  But, it's also the most rewarding.  And, within these 12 days I've already learned something about myself.  I've been so judgemental!  Not on purpose and I'm definitely not proud of it but I've been judging others because...

I thought they were judging me...

I thought I had to be the BEST at everything.  When I would fall short of that I felt as though everyone around me judged me and saw my imperfections.  So, I would judge them - I would look for their faults...

I would look for their imperfections...

But, NONE of us are even close to perfect, especially myself.  I can't hold myself to unreachable expectations and I can't expect to be a superwoman.  What I can expect is to love my family, to worship God, and to see the beauty of everyday (regardless if the house is clean or not).

So, I'm learning to be kind to myself.  I'm understanding that a clean house, a breastfeed baby, or home-cooked meals everyday do not make me a better Christian.  But, I can be kind, I can listen to you when you need me, I can laugh with my family...

and I can help show you God's love...

Nicole

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